To Kago, With Love...

It seems that Kago Ai is finally telling her side of the story to Ohmynews in a 6 part video series.

Sigh. Where to start? I was the biggest Aibon fan ever. She was the first girl that I really fell for in H!P, and she remained my constant favorite up until the time that she was finally fired from H!P. She dissapointed me in so many ways, and it still hurts to think about her sometimes.

I felt so betrayed by how seemingly carelessly she acted towards her fans. However, I can't really be mad. I mean, she is a human being with a life. Her fans shouldn't have to be her number one priority...she has to do what is right for her. Still, what hurt most about her scandal was that she would be taken away from her fans.

She's looking very grown up in the videos and pictures. Her hair has been cut short and is worn in a mature style. Her clothing is modest and simple and she appears soft spoken and gracious. She no longer seems like a child at all.

After reading the following: "My mother and father divorced on that day. At that time, when I was down, my boyfriend had gone far away. I'd known him for a while, and I was close to him. He lived nearby, in Kusatsu (prefecture). I said I wanted to go, but since there was so much snow, going by car would be dangerous. So we went and stayed at the Japanese inn." (taken from hello-online.org), I couldn't help but feel compassion for Aibon. I can't even imagine what she must have been feeling after the second scandal exploded.

In all honesty, I could care less about what my idols do in their personal lives. They're people just like the rest of us. They have their imperfections...they seek comfort when they feel pain, and they don't always do what is best for their image, not because they want to spite us, but because it's what they have to do for themselves.

So, although it makes my heart hurt a bit watching her all grown up, I will continue to support her as an actress, because even through it all, she's still very dear to my heart.